Holly Golightly

I have learned that crafted into the nature of man is the raw need and desire to belong. I even just look at the word "belong" (not being nerdy and looking up etymology or anything like that but simply into my own heart) and I see to be somewhere that longs for you, to be in company of people or just one person who longs for you to be and be with you. "It is not good for man to be alone", nor is God alone but 3 in 1. And what is the difference per say of standing in an elevator with a bunch of other people, in the mere vicinity of another to crossing that line where one does not feel and is in fact not "alone". For those who have found a sense of belonging, they, can sit in there house by themselves and not experience "alone" that which the Creator has declared is not good.

And so, I have a experienced as of late a bit of revelation on this topic, after having watched the film "Breakfast At Tiffany's" starring Audrey Hepburn.

Here are the final lines to the end scene of this film that have so revealed me. Holly has the capability to be anyone for anyone and knows how to get what she thinks will make her happy, by creating these false identities and living on the superficial side of life with people, her apartment is hardly furnished even though she has been living there for over a year and she has not even named her cat because really she believes she will move some place or something will happen or something better will come along so there is no point in settling in. and here in the final scene Paul, the man in love with Holly is willing and expressing his desire to love her.

Paul Varjak: I love you.
Holly Golightly: So what.
Paul Varjak: So what? So plenty! I love you, you belong to me!
Holly Golightly: [tearfully] No. People don't belong to people.
Paul Varjak: Of course they do!
Holly Golightly: I'll never let ANYBODY put me in a cage.
Paul Varjak: I don't want to put you in a cage, I want to love you!

Holly Golightly: It's the same thing.
Paul Varjak: No it's not. Holly...

Holly Golightly: I'm not Holly. I'm not Lula Mae, either. I don't know who I am! I'm like cat here, a couple of no-name slobs. We belong to nobody and nobody belongs to us. We don't even belong to each other.

Paul Varjak: You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-You-Are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a wild thing, and you're terrified somebody's going to stick you in a cage. Well, baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somaliland. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself.

And in this God was taught me. We can know about it Him and what He is like and even hear Him say I love you, know His promises, know His story and not be able to receive or experience that love because we don't engage in the relationship. In this scene from the film, the man is sitting there right next to her offering his love to Holly, but she cannot experience that love unless she chooses to enter in to that relationship, unless she says "Yes." And things just started hitting me, to fully experience the love of God we have to say "Yes" once, yes, but over and over and over again, walking deeper into it, otherwise we just know a lot of facts of who He is and what he is like, but never tasting the tenderness of His love.

What did this look like practically, well, it started to unravel and is still unwraveling bit by bit, but I have been in a season now for a couple years where I have moved several times over the past 4 years. And here I am now, in Redding California, and it dawned on me...Ok I'm going to engage in this city. I am home. My license plates have been changed, my phone number has been changed to a local number, I am voting in the California elections and I have chosen to make this place home, to embrace it. I have been thinking things like where in my life is there any doubt in who God is, and pursuing those things and turning them all over to Him, that I might truly trust in Him alone and thereby know Him by experience. At times it has been scary, but even in this He is so faithful that I am monitoring my thoughts and refuse to even say that this has been scary (as a scary rooted in fear) because it takes away from believing in His faithfulness. It is not scary because He is so faithful. Ah, it is all unfolding, what a beautiful process. But faithful He most certainly is. It has been an incredible series of weeks of break through! bless His name forever!